HIGHER PERSPECTIVE/ PERCEPTION

I HAVE, AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER,

CLIMBED UPHILL WHEN

I NEEDED TO FIND PEACE WITHIN,

WHEN IN NEED TO RELEASE STRESS ...

Where I grew up we had a "mountain"

as we called it back when ...

Today I would call it a hill 

created by big boulders fused together by time.

I always felt at home and in Peace,

when I had the bigger picture

and vistas below me and was able to view 

as far as the sphere of Mother Earth allowed me to.

The longer I have lived in this physical form,

the Higher up in Altitude 

I have found my view point of life to be,

overlooking my world 

from a Bigger Picture perspective.

I have never enjoyed "ground level" housing,  

it has always made me feel closed in and compressed

to fit into a dungeon of chaos,

 made up of my perceived stressful details of life, 

trying to micro manage everything,

to be in control ...

Since I left my root family home,

I have not lived on ground floor level ever,

 except for a couple of times in the Rockies ...

Slightly different since we're higher up 

than most places anyway.

But still, 

both these times I experienced all the painful,

diminishing details of my perceived childhood.

We always experience our home

from the perspective we need

to be able to have the experiences we are seeking

to perceive the consequences of 

what we trust to be true.

When I look back, in retrospect, 

I realize that I have lived on the Highest Peak

of every town/city (frequency) I have ever experienced

and never below second floor.

I used to curse it because I have always travelled

by bicycle, Winter as well as Rainy Summers.

To get home I always had the wind in my face

and endless uphill pedaling in snow, ice and rain ...

an obvious metaphor for my Life experiences in general.

On Rare occasions 

there was no wind, plain bright and caressing sunshine.

Total bliss and pleasure without working hard to get home.

Moments of Rest I gave myself to enjoy.

I ALWAYS BELIEVED THAT MY LIFE 

WAS AN UPHILL STRUGGLE WITHOUT REWARDS,

WITHOUT RELIEF

ALWAYS TRYING(!) TO FIX IT! 

I never gave up and took the buss or a cab 

except for once or twice when the temperature

was -35C or colder and the chain on the bike wouldn't move

and the pedals did not turn without the risk of breaking.

But what always motivated me was the home coming,

and the restful Peace and Sleep that awaited ...

the ability to close my door around me and 

shut out the buzz and chaos

of physical life and the intensity of 

my perceived reflections.

I did not understand inclusiveness at the time,

 and that all was a reflection of my inner State of Being.

I did not understand that my exhaustion derived

from my "uncanny" efforts to figure out my next step

to fix the outside so it would become peaceful ... 

I believed that this was my duty to

figure out How to fix any unhappiness outside me,

 to survive and hopefully not be reprimanded:

A wounded child's efforts to paint over and fix

and bandaid what seemed to be my responsibility 

and thus in need of my nursing care ...

children are living and breathing and believing

they are responsible for 

all the perceived chaos around them.  

  

In my physical efforts and challenges 

trying(!) to fit in

and be accepted and hopefully liked,

I wish I would have listened more within 

instead of 

spending my time micro managing the details 

 of my outside life, in an effort to survive and 

not be judged and criticized and at the same time

trying to make myself needed and irreplaceable,

a sign of ego importance to give myself some worth.

MARK the use of the word TRYING ...

when we decide to TRY we include the probable failure 

this word includes,

because we don't really believe we will succeed.

All due to the diminishing lack of self worth 

our past experiences have reinforced within,

 the definition we keep of ourselves close to heart.

We Trust In our Lacks,

 rather than our Abundance!

We create a consistent debt from believing in our guilt,

and thus keep a belief that we have to pay back 

and always

EARN OUR RIGHT TO SURVIVE

and thus we overdo our work load to be validated.

We believe we have to 

love more, be more, work more, look better, fit in, 

learn more, have more letters certifying and validating us etc ...

We Trust in the Biggest Lie created:

"I will never be Good Enough to be accepted and let in!"

Believing in this definition 

BLOCKS OUT THE ABUNDANCE OF LOVE

that we are infinitely made of.

WE DON'T ALLOW OURSELVES TO SUCCEED!

"I AM TRYING!"

IS THE MOST POWERFUL STATEMENT

FOR KNOWING "I WILL FAIL!" ON SOME LEVEL!

TO JUSTIFY THE FAILURE WE GIVE OURSELVES

TINY REWARDS TO BANDAID THE LACK OF 

ULTIMATE ETERNAL SUCCESS!

OUR LANGUAGE REFLECTS OUR STATE OF BEING!

LISTEN TO YOUR WORDS

HOW YOU COMMUNICATE TO OTHERS AND 

THE MONKEY MIND CHIT-CHAT,

 THAT IS THE BLAH-BLAHs 

THAT KEEP YOU AWAKE AT NIGHT

PAINTING UP THE "WORST CASE SCENARIO"

BASED ON LIES CREATED FROM FEAR OF SURVIVAL

AND NOT BEING LOVED.

THEY WILL TELL ON YOUR STATE OF BEING!

BAN THE WORD TRY!!!!

TRYING IS LYING! 

AND PAY ATTENTION TO,

 WHEN IT WANTS TO BE HEARD, AND 

WHEN YOU HAVE TO REWRITE

YOUR LANGUAGE TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK YOUR TRUTH!

OUR PHYSICAL MINDS / BRAINS ARE NOT CREATED TO 

MICROMANAGE OUR REALITY OUTSIDE; 

THEY ARE CREATED TO RECEIVE INFORMATION 

FROM OUR HIGHER MIND,

AND PERCEIVE OUR REALITIES AS CLEAR REFLECTIONS 

FROM THE RESONANCE OF OUR STATE OF BEING

CREATED FROM WHAT WE BELIEVE TO BE TRUE.

BELIEVE IN THE INNER VOICE OF YOUR HEART!
IT GUIDES YOU IN FINDING YOU, 
THE TRUE YOU!,
AND IN DETACHING 
THE LABELS YOU WERE GIVEN OR 
THE LABELS YOU GAVE YOURSELF 
TO JUSTIFY YOUR LIFE IN FEAR.

YOU ARE LOVE INCARNATE ON EARTH
TRANSFORMING DARKNESS INTO LIGHT!

BE YOU!!!
EVERYBODY ELSE IS TAKEN!

with Love and Peace in Harmony,

Morayah

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www.santafespirit.com