I INHERITED A LEGACY
OF THE WORRY WART SYNDROME
AND IT HAS BEEN MY GUIDE TO UNDERSTAND
MYSELF ON SO MANY LEVELS OF
LACKS OF SELF WORTH AND SELF LOVE.
IT HAS BEEN MY PLACE OF ESCAPE (FAMILIARITY)
THROUGHOUT MY LIFE EXPERIENCES ...
THE PLACE WHERE FEAR
HAS BEEN THE PREVAILING FEELING
CHOKING ANY DREAMS AND DESIRES OF PASSION.
WHEN WE GIVE AWAY OUR POWER
TO BELIEF SYSTEMS THAT OUR PHYSICAL REALITY
IS THE ONLY EXISTING REALITY THERE IS
LIFE BECOMES TRULY SCARY ...
WE HAVE ALL INHERITED DIFFERENT WAYS
AND PLACES TO GO TO,
WHEN OUR SURVIVAL FEELS THREATENED
AND FEAR OF DESTRUCTION AND PUNISHMENT AWAITS,
IN OUR MONKEY MIND THAT IS!!
MY WORRIES AND ANXIETY
HAS BEEN A TRUE GIFT TO
OPEN UP THE PANDORA'S BOX OF MY SOUL PURPOSE,
UNCOMFORTABLE??,
YESSSS!!!
AND STILL IS WHEN IT RANDOMLY,
OUT OF THE BLUE,
STRIKES LIKE A LIGHTNING AGAIN.
I HAVE LEARNED SKILLS TO WORK MYSELF
OUT OF THE SWAMP, THAT IT REPRESENTS TO ME.
I HAVE DISCOVERED THAT
I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF IN AND IMAGINED FUTURE
LOST IN NOT KNOWING AND FEARING
WHAT WILL HAPPEN, WHEN MY WORST CASE SCENARIO,
WILL SHOW UP AND KNOCK ON THE DOOR.
ALWAYS IN FEAR OF BEING PUNISHED
BECAUSE I AM GUILTY OF SOMETHING
THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IT IS ...
I CALL IT THE DAMNED IF I DO,
DAMNED IF I DON'T SYNDROME ...
HOWEVER I CREATE I WILL ALWAYS
END UP BEING PUNISHED ONE WAY OR THE OTHER.
HUMOROUS! WHEN WE SEE IT FROM THE OUTSIDE?!?
LEAVING THE NOW!
FOR AN (IMAGINED, LINEAR) FUTURE
ALWAYS CREATES A REALITY THAT IS THREATENING!
IN ONE WAY OR THE OTHER, ONE OF FAILURE
AND WE STOP SEEING THE BEAUTY AND WONDERS
OF THE ABUNDANCE WHAT WE HAVE CREATED
IT JUST SEEMS PLAIN UGLY AND SCARY.
GRATITUDE!
NO MATTER WHAT THE PHYSICAL CIRCUMSTANCES ARE!!
ALWAYS SEEK TO FIND THE GRATITUDE WITHIN!
THE REALITY WE HAVE CREATED IS A GIFT FOR US
TO ILLUMINATE WHAT STOLEN BELIEF SYSTEMS
HAVE TAKEN US TO THE CREATED REALITY,
THAT WE EXPERIENCE EMOTIONALLY AND
FIND OURSELVES REACTING WITH SUCH DRAMA TO;
NEGATIVE OR POSITIVE.
WHEN WE HAVE NEUTRALIZED OUR REACTIONS,
WE CAN CHOOSE
WHICH EVER SIDE WE FEEL LIKE EXPERIENCING
WITHOUT JUDGEMENT.
I ALWAYS NEED TO TAKE A STEP BACK TO BE ABLE TO
LOOK AT THE REALITY I HAVE CREATED
FROM A NEUTRAL SPECTATOR VIEWPOINT.
(not always easy in the beginning but practice makes good)
WHEN WE ARE OUT-OF-TUNE
WE NEED TO FIND A TUNER AND
TURN THE TUNING KNOB UNTIL WE ARE IN HARMONY
WITH THE FREQUENCY OF
OUR TRUE SELF STATION ...
WE TUNE OURSELVES UP TO HIGHER FREQUENCIES, AND
WE ARE ABLE TO STEP OUT OF THE SWAMPS OF THE DARKNESS,
TO BE ABLE TO PERCEIVE A 360 VIEW
OF THE CIRCUMSTANCES THAT ARE CHALLENGING US.
WE EXTEND OURSELVES BEYOND THE EXPERIENCE,
LIKE THE GIRAFFE,
AND ALLOW OURSELVES TO TRULY PERCEIVE THE TRUTH
FROM A PERSPECTIVE OF THE BIGGER PICTURE.
// If we choose to dive into the swamps
we drown ourselves in the darkness and
in the details and lose the bigger picture.
The same way we can't perceive clearly
a relationship "gone south,"
when we are still wrapped up by it.
Not until we are on the outside "looking in"
can we understand the dynamics of the whole package
and why we suffered from heart aches,
+
and we cannot see clearly
until we stop!!!
pointing fingers and blaming the other party.
STOP!!
blaming the physical outside!!
it is just reflecting our own resonance to us
and what we believe to be true
about ourselves and our worth.
plain physics:
what we put out will return ...
bumerang effect//
THIS IS HOW I GO ABOUT MYSELF:
I ASK MYSELF ...
WHAT THE DEFINITIONS ARE THAT I HAVE LABELLED,
WHAT I AM EXPERIENCING AND
WHAT THE DIFFERENT ASPECTS IN MY REALITY ARE
THAT MAKE ME REACT
WITH THE AMOUNT OF FEAR AND ANXIETY
THAT I DO.
THEN I USE MY GRATITUDE
TO BE ABLE TO ASCEND INTO
A MORE HARMONIOUS STATE OF BEING RESONATING
WITH MY HIGHER MIND, MY TRUE SELF
TO FIND WHAT I BELIEVE TO BE TRUE TO
CREATE THE RESONANCE OF THE EXPERIENCE
I AM HAVING.
IF I DON'T FIND ANYTHING WORTH REVIEWING,
THAT I BELIEVE TO BE TRUE ...
I TRAVEL BACK INTO "MY PAST" TO VIEW
THE RELATIONSHIP/ PHYSICAL LIFE DYNAMICS,
(beliefs, feelings, rules, judgements, chaos, drama,
how I experienced myself being treated and supported and
any other useful perception etc)
THAT I GREW UP LEARNING FROM
HOW TO LABEL AND DEFINE LIFE AND
MY (INHERITED) FEARS
AROUND SURVIVAL AND BEING LOVABLE.
SAME, SAME, BUT DIFFERENT ...
THE SAME SHADOW SIDE OF LACKS OF SELF WORTH
ARE REFLECTED THROUGH
LOVE,
MONEY,
HEALTH.
WE GIVE AWAY OUR POWER AND END UP DEPLETED,
WHEN WE BELIEVE THAT
OUR PHYSICAL REALITY IS
THE ONLY EXISTING REALITY.
WHERE PHYSICAL REALITY ENDS THERE IS NOTHING ...
WE END UP EXHAUSTED
WHEN WE SPEND OUR LIVES
TRYING TO MICROMANAGE AND BE IN CONTROL,
TRYING TO FIGURE OUT AND CLEAN UP AND
FIX OUR OUTSIDE (MIRRORS) ...
INSTEAD OF OWNING ALL THAT WE PERCEIVE
AS GIFTS TO HELP US COMPLETE OUR SOUL AGREEMENTS.
I BELIEVE THAT WE AGREE,
BEFORE ENTERING OUR PHYSICAL LIFE EXPERIENCES,
ON THEMES (SOUL) TO EXPLORE AND LEARN FROM.
THE EXPERIENCES WE ARE HAVING
ARE SOLELY THE WAY WE OURSELVES
CHOOSE TO CREATE OUR REALITIES TO LEARN FROM.
WHEN WE POINT FINGER,
THERE ARE ALWAYS THREE!! FINGERS POINTING BACK
AT OURSELVES.
THERE IS NO OUTSIDE!
ONLY OURSELVES REFLECTED ...
THE LIGHTER AND BRIGHTER WE ARE
THE CLEARER THE MIRRORS ...
JUST SHOWING US WHAT WE ARE NOT
VERSUS WHAT WE ARE ...
WHERE WE ARE ALIGNED OR OUT OF ALIGNMENT.
THERE ARE TWO ENDS TO A POLE
OR THERE WOULD BE NO POLE ...
LIFE IS NEVER EVER JUDGING WHAT WE ARE
MASTER CREATORS OF,
JUST SIMPLY PROVIDING, WHAT WE NEED TO REVEAL
TO OURSELVES ABOUT OURSELVES.
WE CHOOSE WHAT WE USE,
FOR OUR HIGHEST GOOD.
WE ARE ALWAYS LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY!
JUST BECAUSE WE ARE ...
NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT WE DO!
YOU ARE WORTHY TO
BE FREE IN
PEACE AND HARMONY,
MORAYAH
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